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Name: Cameron
Birthday: 5/17/1990
Gender: Male


Interests: Halo, anime, roleplaying, meeting new people
Expertise: Drawing, making people laugh, my various pets
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Nonprofit


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Sunday, December 31, 2006

colorado

Sittin in an airport in Denver, Colorado.  It's been a fun trip and I have definitely earned some points with Tami (tehe).  It's surely better than I thought it would be.  All the way there (after the jet lag and the motion sickness and the fear of death by snow) I figured it would be so boring and that I would be out of there before I would have even been able to notice where on earth I was..... Quite the contrary -- I couldn't STOP realising where I was.  The air was so clean (yet dry ...) and the mountains were so beautiful and CLOSE UP, and so was the wildlife (remembering the elk that just decided to walk into the highway)

And yeah, I know it's been a while since I have updated, but there really isn't much to keep you all updated on  ... I mean, all of you that read this thing, I see nearly every day.

Okay, I suppose I will be a bit more forthcoming with my trip though...
We arrived early in the day, yet made it to the cabin around 1:00 p.m.  Everyone was tired out of their mind, yet we still wanted to take in the area.  There was an amazing street that had stores all along it, and these placed sold EVERYTHING.  They even ran out of places to sell stuff, so some stores just repeated the product of another one (ex: there were two candy shops, two fossil shops, and two celtic wares shops) but it was still cool!  I got to show Tami Pulp Fiction and I am very proud now that she finds the phrase "Say 'what' again!" funny ... along with "Oh man, I just shot Marvin in the face.."  *Glee*

this is tami now
Hi ! yes.. Colorado is AMAZINg! We saw elk and snow and translyvanians and russians and ugly people and hippies and organic food and SNOW and ice.. and SNOW.. and........... mountains.. and SNOW.. and buffalo nuts... covered in snow.. and a hot tub in the snow.. and ....... snow.

yepp... i loved it. and i love snow, i mean cameron.

 


Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Ode to U with N ...

Inconceivably
Incoherently
Intolerably
Inventively
Intoxicatingly
Insistently
Inevitably
Infinitely
Instinctively
Insanely
In love
    with you



Yeah, I know I said I wouldnt post anymore... But who remembers that?


Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Well this is gonna be my last post.  Really, this one is the last one.  It has been a long trip across the internet highway ... Posts on this xanga have gone from inspiring to flattering, from tear-jerking to anger-inspiring, and from awesome to just down-right-stupid.

But I will leave you all with this.....

I love you so much, yet I never will have the courage to tell you.  Does it show me to be a coward?  Maybe I just take too much of my time sitting, pondering my next move, hoping that it will be as clever as my last and not as foolish as the one before.  I buy myself time with conversation and drink - possibly finding an idea of what to say to you next.  I write songs, poems, and books of our times shared, yet you will never read a single one ... I will burn them before they are seen.  It's a bittersweet feeling.  The longing of what I will never have keeps me alive, yet the emptiness inside rises when you are far away, and -oh yes- it is painful.  Perhaps it makes me long for you more, realising that you have never felt this feeling.  Whatever you wanted, you could have with the snap of a finger ... Men would flock to your side and give YOU their jacket as THEY layed across the puddle.  It burned, the feeling rose again as I saw it all ... I noticed myself again, forgotten in the back.  Why did I never say it?  "I love you!"  ... it is that simple, so why do I stammer and studder as I try to say it?  Why do I fall silent when I look at you; knowing what I want to say, but allowing the courage to leave me?  Every time I look to you, there is someone else chasing after you ... and each one is special, more special than the last.  Each one makes you feel different... Yet I could be the new special, the one that I know you wont find.  I dont know how yet, but I will ... I would.  I will just never have that chance to tell you - to show you.  You used to always know what was on my mind, do you still?  Even though, each one will be more special than I ...

The one that never even got the chance to be special.


I have taken this feeling and put it into words.  Not necessarilly a feeling that I have felt - yet it does feel familiar.  However, I wanted to leave you all with this:

A life needs not love to be able to flourish, it needs to flourish to be able to love.


Saturday, July 01, 2006

Well now, this seems like something that I have well earned: a depressed post ... Well, not really depressed, but a post inspired by depressing events.  I have friends turning their backs on one another all for a relationship's sake all over again.  Personally, to tell you the truth, I enjoy seeing people make fools of themselves (not saying that I have never done the same; I look back on it and laugh) in such meaningless ways - especially in dealings with "boyfriends" or "girlfriends". 

Now then, a nice question that someone asked me once "Is a girl (or boy) worth it?"  in other words: is a girlfriend or boyfriend worth losing friendship over?  The answer is simple ... no.  Now then, I have heard and said the comment "If they do not support your decisions then they are not your real friend" (which could very well be just you being selfish and not wanting them to DARE think about rejecting ~you~) but that is quite the contrary in most situations.  A lot of things can get in the way of people's heads in dealings with relationships, such as jealousy.  You may not notice it, but you having a relationship is possibly one of the last things someone else wanted to see because perhaps they are a fragile individual that does not want to see everyone around them coupled up - it would inspire feelings of loneliness and alienation from even their closest friends.  Though this may not concern you (which I respect) there are plenty of people out there that feel this way without even realising it.  Another thing that may get in the way may be knowledge that the person has that makes them sure that your relationship is not the best thing in the world or possibly even a very detremental thing.  Oh how many times we have all heard of "He/She doesnt actually like you!"  You say this because you have concern for your friend's well being and you only want the best for them.  But WAIT!  Now we get into the conversation "They don't know what is best for me" but who cares if they know or not; they sure as Hell want you to be happy so why do you rub it back in their face?  Yes, they could be jealous but atleast listen to them. 

I talk to people all the time about relationships ... I especially like it when smartasses come up and say "You have never been in a relationship, so what right do you have to tell others about them?" (which I heard from someone who knows less about themself than anything else apparently)  Back to my point; I talk to people all the time about relationships, not to give them wisdom but to give them help an insurance that they are worth something in a very artificial world.  Such as, I can tell guys that the best way to get a girlfriend is to get one and make a "mistake" - make her dump you and then "hate yourself" for it.  Now, don't ham it up because you will scare people away - make it seem like you are assured that it was just not meant to be and you are "afraid" that you may never find the right person.  Women have a natural instinct to be drawn to this whether they like it or not because it is called a "Motherly Instinct", something that makes women drawn to things without a guide.  I can also tell girls that the best way to get guys is not to seem inward and reserved, but to seem very self confident and courteous.  If you are a bubbling, joyful person, then guys are drawn to that because all we wanna have is a fun time.  So the girls that are always depressed at how they look and things like that would be better off not caring (all the guys are gonna say "you arent ugly" anyway)

Now then, do I follow that crap?  No ... but it is fun to say I do.

Back to the depressing subject though.  My friends who are Christians, listen to me and trust me when I say that no one ever got to Heaven because they had a girlfriend/boyfriend.  All who are not, listen to me and trust me when I say that life is a whole lot more fun when you can play the field.  Friends can make out ... who says they cant?  Relationships are friendships with arguing and making out ... possibly sex (but that is a different story) and I say that anyone that can avoid arguing has won that fight.  So, what do you really want that relationship for?  Do you want to make it so no one can steal this "trophy" of yours (because if not, you are really making it seem like that).  Do you want to chase after something that you cannot have (because when you catch it, it will not be as exciting).  Do you want to protect this child (because this person can grow up on their own)  Or... Have you truly earned the responsibility and gained the trust that it takes to love this person truthfully and completely? 

Anyway... the best relationships are started by the people's friends, not them :P 


Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Well... I waved goodbye to her today.  She left on a plane.  I hope she atleast got to see one last delta sunset out of the window.



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